WHAT THE FUC?

ok so i am being badgered by lots of people that i know. reason being.... i am hanging w/ a gurl that i am diggin. so every1s ? 4 me is.....r u gay now?!?!?!? WTF? if i were, which i am not, u wont get answer that way. y is every1 feelin the need to comment on my shit. i mean, it is MY life. ur input means shit to me!! no doubt.
i REFUSE to be labeled. i WILL not b put in a BOX. i chill w/ this person bc i dig their style. everything about this person has got me open. personality 1st and foremost, intelligence, know it all fuckin attitude, and looks. btw, body is bangin!!!! lol and because of said persons gender, i will not shy away. for fuckin wat? i mean i am not prancing around disrespecting and confusing my child. that should b all that matters. there will come a time when he will inquire...but that is anotha blog!!!!!! word!
my lil sister felt the need to tell me not to flaunt that "shit" in front of MY son. notice that sentence. LITTLE SISTER & wait, wait .....MY son. i know how to raise my own fuckin child. being doin it since 98! and y she say "shit". i was like, wow, ok! WTF!?!?!?!?!?!
the only thing i am skeptical about w/ this relationship is.....i dont know where it can go from here. i mean i always wanted to get married. even tho is was doubtful bc honestly mufuccas cant handle me. have a wedding, gotta b all about me day! that stuff does not happen in the type of relationship i am in. well not relationship relationship. friendship right now.that is wat we have, a friendship. well at least i dont think that stuff happens.
i resent that people are all in my shit fa real. does it matter if i am gay or not? yo, when we go out together we get lots of stares. and it isnt like we are walkin holdin hands and shit. i dunno. the shit is crazy. i am slightly confused. do i want that fa real? or not? i dont want to lead shorty on and shit and then decide, O i dont want to do this bc i dont want to deal with x, Y & Z... i dunno man...i hope this isnt one of my wild child moments.....SHIT, FUC!